Many people might start by apologizing for what they are about to say, do, or even think- I do not.
There is no reason to- neither should you. I am here to talk, I am here to tell you something. These days; I am success beyond what I use to envision. Roughly four years ago, I did not know where I was going to be honestly. I had no clear vision, I was rotten inside, I had let the world bring me down to my knees for a quick moment. I wore an apron, made coffee for people who had it going on. I often wonder how they got there.
It took an explosion to destroy what I had going on back in those days. It was a rude awakening. A destroyed relationship, a planned suicide that I never followed through with, learning to actually be independent from everything and everyone….
I suppose after a few drinks, weed, women, and planning to kill man will toughen you up really quick. I went from a broke barista making $600 a month, to spending the same amount on bitches and drinks… and not even blinking at how fast the 20’s left the tip of my fingers. I saw who was who for once. I saw reality and looked it in they eyes… and learned to smile.
By no means am i bitter, but I am hardened a bit. My grandmother once told me “if somebody wants you, simply ask them what they want you for?” She also told me that sluts are everywhere to get me- she was right on both statements.
I walked out on someone the other day who was more interested in checking their facebook and instagram- funny how people get offended when you only ask they be there with you when you took the time to see them and share your presence. Actions, are king to any bullshit anyone tells you; whether its your mother, best friend, ex- lover, your boss, or that bitch you fucked that one time and is now telling you to keep your mouth shut because she found a jonny pendejo she really likes. (if it aint a man like me, hes a pendejo- end of story).
I hate having feelings resurfacing every time I see her face. But then again I am second rate priority to her. Why believe anything else. Its the fucking truth. I do not need to be baby sat, I do not need to be called out on every thing I write- this blog is my blog: not about the drug dealers that have given me women and guns, not about my asshole former boss not about my ex- girlfriend, or the other ex-girlfriend, and… well the list goes on with these… what I am saying is- its my blog. Fuck you.
People have been so disappointing lately. If I want to party, I will party. If I want to be more rich, I will be more rich, If I want to drink and fuck up my liver- oh well. I do not need anyone. I do not need your opinion. I do not need to hear ” I care for you” when you do not. I do not need to hear ” I am here for you” when you are not. I DO NOT need to be called your best friend, when I get traded for other friends and priorities last minute. Excuses and apologies mean shit after the fact. I am not needing anything. But I need action behind your words. I need you to be genuine.
My approach is- apologize for nothing. Do everything with intend, do it whole heartily… but it is easier after your heart has been torn to pieces. My point is this: you want to see someone- fucking call them, do not text them, do not postpone, fucking do it. Hey- still in love with someone? Tell them, because they might go away… or shit, maybe you will go away and then they will be like “dammit… I am such a pendeja” Be fierce in your path to getting what you want. Do not do anything half ass. Do not jerk someone around for days or even years. Make up your fucking mind and decided on what you want. Do not be turned into a grade C option for someone- fuck those people. Be the one who decides.
I am done with bullshit.
Salvador Dalí pouring a glass of his favorite blanc de blanc.
So kick rocks, ok?
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